People will always find fault. You are who you are, and thats not defineable. People get drunk, and you recognize improvement in yourself going towards where you want to be. Focus on that. No one else matters. We become what we fill the void with.
I dont think it was blackmail but rather a feeling they had, sometimes people feel alone even if they arent. The relationship ended because of other stuff, not by me but probably mutually. Love seems like a painful experience in my life. Thanks for your reply.
Yes newfie land was an odd place. But beautiful and geologically amazing. I recommend hiking the lewis hills.
Kensington is a lot of fun.
Go ahead. When you get raped and abused, emotionally tortured. and have a "pimp", you will be estranged from your family. You will be a slave, without your consent. Go ahead and glamorize the lifestyle. Easy come easy go. Even the cops wont be able to help you, because there will be no proof that it wasnt done without your consent. This is how people get into human traficking. If you really want to get into this career path go look it up. If you value your life, research the field like you would any other job. It is so upsetting when I see girls willing to become a puppet and are excited by the opportunity. Why not have a healthy relationship with a boy your age? Instead of a pedophile?
Thanks Mopy. It really helps to have outside perspective. Im hurting i guess. Maybe arrogantly, I am afraid that i will hurt this person and theyll hurt themselves permanently. Theyve told me they want to and im the only reason they havent. I also fear that im giving up something amazing and just don't "believe" them when they say they love me, that im the problem and expect too much.