However unhealthy I believe he is to you and especially in close proximity, I'm sure there was many memories and attachments/comfort felt knowing he was around and so close. It's okay to mourn for that closeness. I hope you feel better soon.
Lingerie? Sexual innuendos?
Haha, that sounded so cringe-worthy just reading it. Sorry you had to go through that
Cynic it's different person. It's a friend who been struggling with doing what is needed
Cynic appreciate the effort lol