The Opposing And The Opposed

Night before last things got ugly again, between my mom and me. We live in an apartment now, and there's a dikcbag who likes to mess with our laundry, leave nasty notes, and yell at...
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Don't Say That!

My aunt's losing her husband to cancer, and right now my mom's on the phone with said aunt, saying something to the effect of: "I'm glad we got to see him again. You never know how...
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Damn It All

Just waiting for my family to come home. I just know they'll ask me why I'm eating breakfast when I should be getting ready to go to the store. Oh, please do forgive me for taking...
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What's Going On?

My sister graduated college awhile back. That opens a lot of doors in the career world. Yet she chooses to remain in a cruel neighborhood, much too far away, with no jobs to offer. I...
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Depression Coming Back

I don't know how many more days I can drag myself through. Honestly, I just don't want to wake up tomorrow. And I'm not saying I want to die. I know life has beauty, and goodness. I...
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Who I Might Be

Sooo . . . I think I might be a lesbian. I've tried to imagine the perfect guy and I just can't. Because: They don't have breasts. Huh. Well, this is our little secret. My family...
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With The Worst Behind Me

My surgery has been moved. Oh, that reminds me - I'M DONE! It's been a rough ride, and I still have some tough times ahead of me, but the worst is truly over. I'm recovering with all...
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I Still Can't Believe It

Anyone who reads my blogs knows my mother is a reformed Bible enthusiast who now drinks, swears, and yells. While I think swearing and yelling can take a lot of pressure off; turns...
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Feeling Better Now

I haven't slept yet. I was near tears because I have a surgery coming up, and I just didn't know if I could go through with it. I was near tears, feeling more scared than I ever have....
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My Brother Is Slowly Killing Me

Dear Brother, You're such an @$$ that you've gotten into my dreams, where you're even more unpleasant. I know you're good on the inside, but it's not weird to show it once in awhile....
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Waiting For Reason

I'm still here. I don't know why, but I am. Sometimes I don't want to be. Sometimes I want to just . . . not suffer anymore. I do, every day; and nothing is more terrifying than the...
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If You Care To Read

I'm really sad right now. Sadder than I've been for a long time. For the past decade, I battled severe depression; and I thought I'd won. I thought I was past my suicidal thoughts...
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It's All Out There Now

I told her. Finally. Ever since I did, it's been really quiet. No emails from anybody. So she probably hates me, but she needs to know who she's marrying. When my mom remarried, my...
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Hoping He Stops

Okay, so some of you might know by now that my sister's fiancé is hitting on my mother and me. What a mess that is. Anyway, I've asked him to stop. Again. He says my sister is okay...
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Oh, ẖē͂Ī̂Ī̂ No

It wasn't supposed to be like this! This is so bad! Okay, I'm not supposed to say anything, but I must! I need to tell someone. My sister's fiance seemed like a really good guy. But...
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To A Friend

To My Friend, I can't go a single day without thinking of you. Are you well? I wish you would let me know. I am well, but I miss you terribly. You were often sad. I remember. You...
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Almost Not Totally Furious

More and more lately, I've noticed some things. Ugly things. My family doesn't listen to me, and they don't respect me. Okay, let me amend that. I don't deserve their respect; but...
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This Will NOT Be A Good Day

No sleep at all, for the second or third night in a row - I lost count. My head is KILLING me. (It can hurry up, at least.) No matter what I say, both people living with me MUST ARGUE...
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I Didn't Know What To Call This Blog, So I Called It This

I made one mistake. Now my family doesn't trust me. They really told me, "We don't trust you. You might need to get lost." Then they had the nerve to say they weren't putting me down,...
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I Had No Idea What To Call This Blog, So I Called It This

Ummm . . . Have any of you ever had to talk yourself out of doing something you knew was stupid? I had to do that last night. I was all too ready to pack a bag or two and walk to my...
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