Here We Go

Well, my mother's back in the hospital. My brother went with her. I know it sounds cruel, but I would like them to stay there overnight. Yeah, I know, sounds bad. But they have...
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This Week I Remembered

I used to have potential. I used to be smart; I could answer questions in Hindi, I could name all the states. I couldn't do that now if I tried, and I know what happened. It was all...
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Enough Is Enough

4 AM here, and not for the first time the roads are actually quieter than my home. I finally told my mother that I need her to stop drinking alcohol. That I can't live like this much...
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Living In Hell

Soooo . . . to make a long story short, my mother drank herself almost to death. She was hospitalized at 50 pounds with internal bleeding. Now she's drinking again. And when she does...
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Living In Hell

Okay, 100%. My mom is drunk almost all the time now. She's drunk when I eat my supper, when I go to bed, and when I wake up. She's calling of her kids horrible, nasty names; and...
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The Opposing And The Opposed

Night before last things got ugly again, between my mom and me. We live in an apartment now, and there's a dikcbag who likes to mess with our laundry, leave nasty notes, and yell at...
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Don't Say That!

My aunt's losing her husband to cancer, and right now my mom's on the phone with said aunt, saying something to the effect of: "I'm glad we got to see him again. You never know how...
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Damn It All

Just waiting for my family to come home. I just know they'll ask me why I'm eating breakfast when I should be getting ready to go to the store. Oh, please do forgive me for taking...
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What's Going On?

My sister graduated college awhile back. That opens a lot of doors in the career world. Yet she chooses to remain in a cruel neighborhood, much too far away, with no jobs to offer. I...
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Depression Coming Back

I don't know how many more days I can drag myself through. Honestly, I just don't want to wake up tomorrow. And I'm not saying I want to die. I know life has beauty, and goodness. I...
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Who I Might Be

Sooo . . . I think I might be a lesbian. I've tried to imagine the perfect guy and I just can't. Because: They don't have breasts. Huh. Well, this is our little secret. My family...
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With The Worst Behind Me

My surgery has been moved. Oh, that reminds me - I'M DONE! It's been a rough ride, and I still have some tough times ahead of me, but the worst is truly over. I'm recovering with all...
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I Still Can't Believe It

Anyone who reads my blogs knows my mother is a reformed Bible enthusiast who now drinks, swears, and yells. While I think swearing and yelling can take a lot of pressure off; turns...
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Feeling Better Now

I haven't slept yet. I was near tears because I have a surgery coming up, and I just didn't know if I could go through with it. I was near tears, feeling more scared than I ever have....
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My Brother Is Slowly Killing Me

Dear Brother, You're such an @$$ that you've gotten into my dreams, where you're even more unpleasant. I know you're good on the inside, but it's not weird to show it once in awhile....
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Waiting For Reason

I'm still here. I don't know why, but I am. Sometimes I don't want to be. Sometimes I want to just . . . not suffer anymore. I do, every day; and nothing is more terrifying than the...
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If You Care To Read

I'm really sad right now. Sadder than I've been for a long time. For the past decade, I battled severe depression; and I thought I'd won. I thought I was past my suicidal thoughts...
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It's All Out There Now

I told her. Finally. Ever since I did, it's been really quiet. No emails from anybody. So she probably hates me, but she needs to know who she's marrying. When my mom remarried, my...
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Hoping He Stops

Okay, so some of you might know by now that my sister's fiancé is hitting on my mother and me. What a mess that is. Anyway, I've asked him to stop. Again. He says my sister is okay...
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Oh, ẖē͂Ī̂Ī̂ No

It wasn't supposed to be like this! This is so bad! Okay, I'm not supposed to say anything, but I must! I need to tell someone. My sister's fiance seemed like a really good guy. But...
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