Guts Of An A*s

Once again, I'm disappointed. I hardly have to say why or who, I'm sure. Who were you feeding wine to? Who left her cigarette butt on your bedroom dresser? Who did you make a fire...
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Every Day Is A Chance To Change Your Life

Every day is a chance to change your life. I've been doing very little, doing a lot of talking, a lot of peeking around. Enough of the little baby steps. I'm about to make a big move...
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Waiting For It

Can it even be real that there is a weed dispensary delivery service locally, that I already was visited to register with today and am currently waiting for my order to be delivered...
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Don't Underestimate Support

The father was right at the time, I didn't care why the heck their 14 year old son was going to Ohio. I was just the Commissioner of Oaths signing where I needed to and stamping my...
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Wake N' Bake

I like the effects of the morning bowls we share, just before we head out your door. You then drop me off at the bus station, on your way to work. We part for the day, but the 40 min...
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"Come Get More"

Just after I said that I find the sex boring, along came last night. He was pouring sweat over me, spent a marathon amount of time at it, is suffering soreness this morning. But, it...
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Life Is About Trying Not To Fart

I don't get it, anymore. It's not like last summer or the summer before that. I've gained some weight back. Flapping in the wind, I can feel the return of double chin. Now, while...
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Please Stop Being Scared Of Checking Your Bank Account

This has been going on for too long. It's actually quite feverish, this fear, and I don't understand it. I evade paying my bills, I avoid looking at my bank balance at all costs. It...
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"You Always Forget"

Is this some kind of insipid joke? What, have no real reason to be unimpressed with me so you create crap in your head? Last night, he told me to remind him to take the garbage with...
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Estranged Tween Pals

For a few months in grade nine, this girl and I were laughing buddies, peas in a pod, pretty dang close, near besties. We had been at each others places for birthday parties and such....
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Another Perfect Weekend

You jerk. You're too easy to be smitten with. If you keep making my weekends so incredible, what do you think I'm going to feel about you? Ugh, arrghhh! Wonderful awesome times! How...
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Cross Country Cycling

As I get more broke, the more fanciful my dreaming gets. Though, I didn't know how broke I was, until I accidentally saw a receipt after taking a bit of money out from an ATM, this...
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There WILL Be Strawberries, Boys!

Don't you tell me that I can't grow strawberry plants over there! You live in a really nice place and the land you have is hurting my soul that it isn't mine. You're a great host,...
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I'm A Bigger Problem Than I Thought

I've finally reached to a point that I'm forced to realize that I'm a much bigger problem to myself than I thought. It's really stupid that if I have an amazing day or have done...
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You Should Have Seen Your Face

You were completely dumbstruck. In your own house, in your own bed, you looked like you wanted to effing run. It was me being me. High, yeah, but crying is one of my national...
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You Can't Knock Me Down Or Stop Me

I don't care how much s**t happens to me to hinder me. I can't even tell you all of all the impossible crap that's going on right now, that seems to be the way with me since. . . I...
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No You Don't

Okay. I know it's time to change my life when I'm on POF and get messaged "you work at the *****, I recognize you". NO! You recognize me from this show or that movie, or for this song...
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Here We Go Again

One can just feel the eyes roll. Another online dater wants to meet for coffee. How original. I'm so unenthused about any of it, anymore. I just don't think things come from this kind...
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Don't Like This At All

I don't like this. I don't like being home without her. Last night, I listened to crickets and felt so bad that she was out there, away from me, buried at a place of family and love,...
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Her 11th Year

I hope that it was a comfort to you that I was with you, right there, until your end. I hope you loved me. I hope you weren't scared. I don't know what happened or what exactly was...
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