I'm A Bigger Problem Than I Thought

I've finally reached to a point that I'm forced to realize that I'm a much bigger problem to myself than I thought. It's really stupid that if I have an amazing day or have done...
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You Should Have Seen Your Face

You were completely dumbstruck. In your own house, in your own bed, you looked like you wanted to effing run. It was me being me. High, yeah, but crying is one of my national...
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You Can't Knock Me Down Or Stop Me

I don't care how much s**t happens to me to hinder me. I can't even tell you all of all the impossible crap that's going on right now, that seems to be the way with me since. . . I...
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No You Don't

Okay. I know it's time to change my life when I'm on POF and get messaged "you work at the *****, I recognize you". NO! You recognize me from this show or that movie, or for this song...
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Here We Go Again

One can just feel the eyes roll. Another online dater wants to meet for coffee. How original. I'm so unenthused about any of it, anymore. I just don't think things come from this kind...
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Don't Like This At All

I don't like this. I don't like being home without her. Last night, I listened to crickets and felt so bad that she was out there, away from me, buried at a place of family and love,...
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Her 11th Year

I hope that it was a comfort to you that I was with you, right there, until your end. I hope you loved me. I hope you weren't scared. I don't know what happened or what exactly was...
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The Weed In My Basil Garden

As my basil seedlings move on to sprouting their third sets of leaves, I decided to finally pluck the weedling out, tonight. It had been there from the beginning, growing all weird...
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I Was Gonna Wallow

Because, on my way home, after a terrible effing day that shakes you to the very psychology and makes you question if you might just actually be a little brain damaged, I was thinking...
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Ok, But, It's Over

I suppose it's all going to be the way it is until he comes, the real incisor. I surrender. I fight you on nothing, anymore. It's just a total shame. There are no rules, as you...
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"Maybe , Then"

Oh s**t, here it comes, here it is. I have nothing to be sorry for. I was only parroting his own enthusiasm. I didn't say anything, really. Just was completely aloof, like him. But,...
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I'm Done Wiggling You

You're like that loose baby tooth, hanging on by the thinnest of strings to the gums, flapping in the wind, yet holding on with might to each laugh, breath, whistle. You're of no use,...
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I Am Groot

Played it suave when I said goodbye, tonight. I didn't lean over and kiss him or tell him that I love him, that he was so dreamy. I didn't jump up and down and squeal out of absolute...
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Can't Or Won't?

I can do better. Why WON'T I? I'm letting down life, itself and all of the creatures in it. And, when I lose, I lose big. This is probably why. I wish I could take care of myself...
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Too Hot To Finish

Does it make any sense that I barely have orgasms with him because he's too intimidatingly hot, and I'm distracted with concern that he's enjoying the sex? It has always been like...
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Glutonous Lazy Weekend

I know that I have a whole lot that I need to do, but eff it. This is the last day of a long weekend, and I've so far spent it doing the easiest and simplest s**t that I enjoy: not...
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Playing Me Like His Regular Sweetie

I wrote him a good-bye that very night, and he basically ignored it, used it as an opportunity to spend more time together and bail out for the weekend. So, naturally, I went over...
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The Lover And The Liar

It was so weird, he thought, how quiet I was last night. What'swrong?What'swrong?What'sgoingonupthere?What'swrong? I'm not mad. Really, I'm not. I'm just done. I suppose I had...
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Stupid Little B***h

Goddamnit, I'm a f*****g shmuck. I don't get it. I don't get it. I don't get it. I don't F*****G GET IT! I don't even have to do this. I can just say goodbye, instead. I'm starting...
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Currently Coasting, Casting Away

This day saddens me. It saddens me that I both have no care to make an effort for my own mom on Mother's Day and that she knows this enough to tell me to stay home and do whatever it...
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