I Just Blew Up On Him

Kinda exactly like what happened nearly a year ago. Lots of words, lots of snide, lots of self-righteousness that is completely justified and unavoidably true. Just like me. And, just...
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I Walked Out

I was ignored all morning and early afternoon. I left, and wouldn't even look at him as I was getting my boots on and gearing up to go. I was only sorry that I had to go past him and...
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Below Grade And Slumming It

I am disappointed by so much. Even with the disappointing flaw that I have in myself, I still don't disappoint myself as much as the world around me does, especially the people....
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Cute Baby Bird

Ah, I can't wait to get going. I'll be on my mini farm, first year herbs and vegetables, expanding from there. I'll have a little greenhouse and chicken coop. In my farmhouse, I'll...
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The Ground Isn't

He'll be lending me his computer, which means I'll finally be able to get some shït done. Which means, I'll finally be able to get some shït out there. Which means: Holy crap! Real...
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I Love You, But I Hate This

I will not be going to Derek's family Christmas, today. Thanks to my stupid, STUPID unwanted way of life. My coworkers got me deathly ill in time for Christmas. Work made me miss...
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I Am What To You, Again?

Last night, he asked me to his family's Christmas. That's kind of a big first milestone in even a determined and established relationship. I certainly wasn't expecting it, though...
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A Breast Man

I was getting dressed for work and showed off my breasts while he still lay in his bed. I let him have access to them before I dressed them, as usual, because he loves them. "Do we...
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Doing What I Can

Because real life is awaiting me and I can not delay. I got through the day, yesterday, miserable and all, but sober. I did almost cave to order cannabis, but stopped mid-text....
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Sober Blues Again

Something is wrong. I'm not okay with sobriety, again. I have today and tomorrow off, and I'm not even alone, yet, and I'm already feeling tedious, bored to tears and pacey. I so want...
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Brunch With Jamie

That was really awkward. I'm sorry to have disappointed you, I could tell I did, so I overcompensated. Whatever. It cost me, but my conscious is sorta clear, now. I know how to fix...
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Killed It (not In The Good Way)

This town is small. Thank the lord. It was my first open mic and it was not my lovely guitar that was basically abused by my incompetence. The microphone sounded so nice, too. My...
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OMG, Poor Fellow

It's probably a dude's worst nightmare to have that happen on him while having sex. Yick. What a time for my period to start! He was cool about it. He's been cool and great about a...
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Sneaky Bloody Arses!

But, I got them before they got me. I don't often check my cable bill and statement, but something prompted me to do so, tonight, and I'm glad I did, because I saw an outrageous...
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Go, Go, GO!

Goddamnit, that guy's a grumpy and miserable sod when he wants to be! Granted, he's in a lot of pain right now and not mobile. But, truthfully, he's always in pain and always...
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"My Room Smells Like Sweaty Amy"

Well, what the heck does THAT mean? What does that smell like? Is that a bad thing? How do you know that you're not smelling sweaty Derek? This isn't the first time I've heard from a...
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Ho Hum Halloween

This is going to end badly. I had to stop you in the middle of your ramming me again, last night. So not hot. So effing stupid. You're going to want to talk about this, soon, or do...
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Starting To Annoy Me

You're trying to sabotage my personal progress. It's obvious, and it's p*****g me off. You know how desperate I am to get this crap going. You know I'm broke. You know that the...
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Missing Some Simple Stuff

I'm glad that my parents toted me around to wherever they wanted, regardless if I was jazzed about it or not. And, mostly, not. As a kid, long-arse drives are BOOOORRRRING. Old...
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I've Failed And Need Help

So, I avoid my own problems by taking on new ones, adopting other's or revisiting old ones, on purpose. I "indulged" an entire day off, when I really needed to clean and, as always,...
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