Moving In Style

A cute trick I'm picking up on: if I throw any old random crap into a box to sort it all out after I have moved in, but then top the box off and hide the contents below with a big...
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The Tried And Failed Method

Okay, I've given the cut-off cold turkey method enough tries to see that it's not going to work on this guy. He just refuses to be cut off, showed up at my work when calling and...
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Try And Try Again

I'm about to attempt something, yet again. The weak-willed me is sure to fail by the end of the morning, but there's something else in me that will keep trying until I succeed, one of...
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First Of Several

I made my first move, today, the first of several. It was a light first move, just a few of my favourite sticks of furnature. It doesn't appear to have made any dent in this...
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The Wrong Boys

You must love incidences such as last night. You get to over-embellish and feel justified for some initial decision you made about me. And, really? That's fine. You boys think what...
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The Triple Meltdown

It's all strategic. The scant meal tonight, the not seeing you tonight. When I'm there, I'll attend events like tomorrow's a whole hell of a lot more. Wasn't I supposed to be some...
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Calming Down Again

It just doesn't help when my mother, who I take after in negative traits (oh, why couldn't I have inhereted her quick wit and mind, instead?) magnifies my own stress and frazzleness...
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The Eternal Loser

As if this isn't already hard enough on me. I just had a disheartening conversation about my future living arrangements. This time, there was no open mind whatsoever about being in...
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Too Long, Don't Read For Anyone Who Doesn't Love Me

I am so very open and broadminded in so many ways, ideas, concepts, philosophies. I can play devil's advocate to things no one else would. I could fully adopt two opposing mindsets to...
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Better Ed Than Dead

Welcome to another weekend of leavemethefuckalone. That's right, I'm not working! I'm home! So, what better time for everyone to jump on that s**t and ruin it for me? Yeah, no. You...
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My Hero :D

For the second time in 11 years here, I was iced in, today. I had an alternate exit, so it wasn't an emergency, but there are issues with using that other exit, so it's not trusty....
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This Isn't A Game Of Hard-to-get, Just Get Hard Gone

People are simply some f****d up kind of stupid. What kind of wackjobbery is it when you are told that a specific person is going through some personal crap and will have no free...
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I Have Beautiful Snow

I've been wanting this for awhile. I may have worked, today, but I still got to be home early enough to enjoy a beautiful snowday looking out my apartment's only window from my futon....
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Avoidance And Other Barriers

Even my body is shutting down to avoid this. Normally restless me now just says sleep. Sleep and don't stop. I'm stuck. I can't get started. Don't know my way around this, don't get...
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That Old Parachute

I have been approaching this stupidly. Simply, I didn't move here in the first place on my own, and never intended to. I would have never done it, if I were alone at that time. So,...
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Or, Staying Put's Okay, Too

While I've been pipe dreaming for nearly a decade about getting the crud out of this province, it turns out that the province I'm in and always have been, is a prime place in this...
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Hair Isn't The Only Thing To Recede When You Get Older

I was somehow anticipating something like this, today. I don't know why, maybe because I'm trying to change and do things while I still seem young, but having just turned an age that...
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Stepping Over My Own Traps

How can I dare to even think of doing better for myself when I remember what horribleness I have done? The more I improve myself, the more I do, the more I'm waking up to, realizing,...
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The Game Is Too Tempting

I KNOW I'm just being tested and challenged, I get it. But, this one is tempting. Dillon, Derek's bestie, of all people, has decided to contact me today after throwing a tantrum...
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New Year, New Life

I've been writing elsewhere on this, as it happens. There is so much going on, especially internally. The way I obsess is scary, but I'm actually glad it happens. Because, I can't...
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