These Freedoms And Beyond

You can't blast this noise. You can't come and go as you please, where you please, for as long as you please. You can't watch these movies, play these video games, pluck at this...
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You, The Wicked All

It's not a straight line for me to get where I need to. I'm doing it all on my own, and that's something I never wanted nor anticipated, and is something that I don't understand and...
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From Art To Garbage

I love oil paintings in the same way that I love clothes made from silk and velvet. For the most intense and rich colours with shine and depth and thickness. Like how gems, stones,...
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Nothing New, No Need To Read

I've placed myself in a pickle long ago, and due to my own cowardice, I'm forced to stay in said pickle until such a time as I gather enough balls to have a simple conversation. It's...
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It's All Fine

I'm feeling good. I was sore yesterday, but I hadn't slept much the night before. This morning, after doping myself up all day long after getting home from work and then sleeping...
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One New Ache Per Hour

He convinced my a*s to call my dad to take me to the hospital. I'm gonna be here for bloody hours. I got hit by a car walking home. I walked away, but I was pushed hard enough to...
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A Wednesday Off

"Yay, I have tomorrow off!" "So, does that mean you are going to party, tonight?" He sometimes asks ridiculous questions like this, and I don't get why. He likes to tease me a lot,...
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Commissioner Of Oath

On Saturday, I signed an application to be a Commissioner of Oath, as my boss decided that she wanted me to be a back-up for when she or our supervisor isn't in or able. I suppose...
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No Which Way Up

I guess it tells all when screwing leads to me leaving his bed, his apartment, and weeping in my own. The drugs are gone, the self-destruct and disrespect is over. The distraction is...
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The First 19th

Never has a 19th passed without associating it with you and the representation. And, it's not like I didn't think of you, yesterday, walking home or whatever, but I was dealing with...
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Small Observation Life

It's sorta funny, but since I took that whole year off of drinking, my whole habit has changed. I barely bother with the stuff, unless it's a great pint or great wine, and even then,...
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Are You F*****g Kidding Me?!

I was on my way! I was doing it. I was cutting him out. I was done. I was going to send that text. It was over tonight. He hounded me around town tonight, catching my flip attitude...
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A Text Like This

"Just thought you should know that I'll be unavailable for awhile. Something came up. I'll let you know when things are back on track". -And, I think that's all I'll give him, to...
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Stirring The Pot

Screw it. I'm effing bored, and I'm also effing sick of this kid, except I like the attention he gives when he chooses to give it. Often, I am made to feel like I'm essential to his...
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He Kissed Me

A few days before New Year's Eve, I had made a private decision that I discussed nowhere else with anyone. It has been a tumultuous week with Derek's ex's infamous visit, Dillon's...
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Yearning For Beloved

I don't really care what you look like. If you have none but stars and love in your eyes for me, you are the smartest and most handsome man I've ever known, and I would be the most...
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Get In Line

I wish I would cut this guy completely out, too. He needs to begin a new chapter in his life with all that he desires and wishes for, a life that reflects what's in his heart. And,...
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Kissing My Butt And Full Disclosure

It was only six months ago that I heard him and his ex through his walls, sneaking her about, without him uttering a word about it to me. Well, yesterday, he got home in a bit of...
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If You're Not Moving In, Then I'm Moving Out

That's right, what you're experiencing is the inital stages of losing me. And, you may not even know, yet. You really went full retard there, trying to discredit my rationale in...
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Just Boringly Blabbing, Moreso Than Usual

If I can afford so, I would like to take a week off in February. I want it to be the coldest, snowiest, bleakest, blizzardy stormy week in the entire season. I wish to be snowed right...
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