Go On, Take, And Get The Life You Want

Take what you want. Because, nothing is going to fall into your lap. Nothing that you truly want will ever be handed to you. What am I even doing here? PEI isn't here, it's there,...
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The Day Where Everything Went Amazingly

Wow. Started by finding a toonie, so that I could actually take the bus to work instead of hoofing or cabbing it like I was going to. Dropped a birth control pill (which are the...
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Of Maiden Leddy

Of soul and spirit are my roots, be them biological or adopted, a mystery, I am of maiden Irish Leddy. We welcome our fold into our family. Do you forget this? Do you miss this? Did...
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Victories And Defeats

No, it's not okay to be so proud. Because, what I'm proud of are things that I should have been doing, anyways. I'm just not used to doing them. And, with an over-inflated sense of...
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WTF Is This, Middle Earth? Magic Number 9 Returns

The last time I heard from my #9, Dan, was in September before he stood me up for the second time without word. This morning, like 5am, I got a text "so, how's the new job, Amy?"...
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I Can't Make This Sh!t Up

Actually, I can, but I never would, as it's otherwise unbelievable and terribly unpleasant. Derek asked if he could come over to watch the Walking Dead, last night. I agreed, all was...
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I'm Too Old For This

It's the first time I've ever had to say that about something. My heartbreaks or upsets in regards to my heart and others. I physically can't do this to myself, anymore. I don't...
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Losing More Writing, Doing More Righting

Well, the Ipad that has always gone haywire whenever the f**k it feels like just deleted my last secret on it's own. I guess it's just as well. But, I am so sick and tired of losing...
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A Free Amy

I still don't know what I did. Must be bad. Without warning, he slung my undies I left there on my screen door handle for my visiting friend to find, last night. But, whatever I did,...
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I Did. . . Something

What it was, I have no idea, but I got sloppy drunk on purpose. When I returned from drinking, I went to his place, but I don't remember what happened, what I do remember was him not...
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Why Won't I?

This past summer, I did something I have never done before: made a friend, but when that friend disrespected my bodily boundaries as per my chosen role as friends, I cut him out....
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These Freedoms And Beyond

You can't blast this noise. You can't come and go as you please, where you please, for as long as you please. You can't watch these movies, play these video games, pluck at this...
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You, The Wicked All

It's not a straight line for me to get where I need to. I'm doing it all on my own, and that's something I never wanted nor anticipated, and is something that I don't understand and...
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From Art To Garbage

I love oil paintings in the same way that I love clothes made from silk and velvet. For the most intense and rich colours with shine and depth and thickness. Like how gems, stones,...
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Nothing New, No Need To Read

I've placed myself in a pickle long ago, and due to my own cowardice, I'm forced to stay in said pickle until such a time as I gather enough balls to have a simple conversation. It's...
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It's All Fine

I'm feeling good. I was sore yesterday, but I hadn't slept much the night before. This morning, after doping myself up all day long after getting home from work and then sleeping...
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One New Ache Per Hour

He convinced my a*s to call my dad to take me to the hospital. I'm gonna be here for bloody hours. I got hit by a car walking home. I walked away, but I was pushed hard enough to...
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A Wednesday Off

"Yay, I have tomorrow off!" "So, does that mean you are going to party, tonight?" He sometimes asks ridiculous questions like this, and I don't get why. He likes to tease me a lot,...
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Commissioner Of Oath

On Saturday, I signed an application to be a Commissioner of Oath, as my boss decided that she wanted me to be a back-up for when she or our supervisor isn't in or able. I suppose...
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No Which Way Up

I guess it tells all when screwing leads to me leaving his bed, his apartment, and weeping in my own. The drugs are gone, the self-destruct and disrespect is over. The distraction is...
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