Trooper For Awhile

I let the date get to me. Coupled with the misery of how I felt, last night. It's all connected. I just let myself be miserable and sulk and wallow. Screw it. I have been a relatively...
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Why So Mad

It's hard to be a natural born weirdo and like yourself at the same time. No wonder life feels like a constant fight or struggle, because defensiveness is always heightened. No one is...
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Drunkenness Doesn't Trump Discarding

That's right. Be sorry for something that didn't bother me at all, but then run away in silence (fear?) when I hit you with the truth of what ACTUALLY upset me, that you didn't even...
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I Always Really Want To Go

That's the last time I miss out on a concert or event because I either can't afford it or can't because of work/other commitments. The Residents are touring, announced months ago that...
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Full Blue Moon

While every good crystal owner was fussing and prepping their babies for it, and while my own were probably hoping for a soak in the full blue moon for a refreshing charge, last...
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Black And Silver

I was never exactly jazzed that the furniture scheme in my apartment livingroom was silver and black. It just happened that way. It started with the futon. It only came in a silver...
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Not A Crazy Cat Lady

I decided that I'll never be a crazy cat lady. Not even a crazy bunny lady (even though I'd like to have lots of them). But, I AM turning into a crazy crystal lady. I just can't get...
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Moving In Style

A cute trick I'm picking up on: if I throw any old random crap into a box to sort it all out after I have moved in, but then top the box off and hide the contents below with a big...
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The Tried And Failed Method

Okay, I've given the cut-off cold turkey method enough tries to see that it's not going to work on this guy. He just refuses to be cut off, showed up at my work when calling and...
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Try And Try Again

I'm about to attempt something, yet again. The weak-willed me is sure to fail by the end of the morning, but there's something else in me that will keep trying until I succeed, one of...
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First Of Several

I made my first move, today, the first of several. It was a light first move, just a few of my favourite sticks of furnature. It doesn't appear to have made any dent in this...
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The Wrong Boys

You must love incidences such as last night. You get to over-embellish and feel justified for some initial decision you made about me. And, really? That's fine. You boys think what...
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The Triple Meltdown

It's all strategic. The scant meal tonight, the not seeing you tonight. When I'm there, I'll attend events like tomorrow's a whole hell of a lot more. Wasn't I supposed to be some...
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Calming Down Again

It just doesn't help when my mother, who I take after in negative traits (oh, why couldn't I have inhereted her quick wit and mind, instead?) magnifies my own stress and frazzleness...
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The Eternal Loser

As if this isn't already hard enough on me. I just had a disheartening conversation about my future living arrangements. This time, there was no open mind whatsoever about being in...
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Too Long, Don't Read For Anyone Who Doesn't Love Me

I am so very open and broadminded in so many ways, ideas, concepts, philosophies. I can play devil's advocate to things no one else would. I could fully adopt two opposing mindsets to...
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Better Ed Than Dead

Welcome to another weekend of leavemethefuckalone. That's right, I'm not working! I'm home! So, what better time for everyone to jump on that s**t and ruin it for me? Yeah, no. You...
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My Hero :D

For the second time in 11 years here, I was iced in, today. I had an alternate exit, so it wasn't an emergency, but there are issues with using that other exit, so it's not trusty....
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This Isn't A Game Of Hard-to-get, Just Get Hard Gone

People are simply some f****d up kind of stupid. What kind of wackjobbery is it when you are told that a specific person is going through some personal crap and will have no free...
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I Have Beautiful Snow

I've been wanting this for awhile. I may have worked, today, but I still got to be home early enough to enjoy a beautiful snowday looking out my apartment's only window from my futon....
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