I Am What To You, Again?

Last night, he asked me to his family's Christmas. That's kind of a big first milestone in even a determined and established relationship. I certainly wasn't expecting it, though...
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A Breast Man

I was getting dressed for work and showed off my breasts while he still lay in his bed. I let him have access to them before I dressed them, as usual, because he loves them. "Do we...
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Doing What I Can

Because real life is awaiting me and I can not delay. I got through the day, yesterday, miserable and all, but sober. I did almost cave to order cannabis, but stopped mid-text....
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Sober Blues Again

Something is wrong. I'm not okay with sobriety, again. I have today and tomorrow off, and I'm not even alone, yet, and I'm already feeling tedious, bored to tears and pacey. I so want...
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Brunch With Jamie

That was really awkward. I'm sorry to have disappointed you, I could tell I did, so I overcompensated. Whatever. It cost me, but my conscious is sorta clear, now. I know how to fix...
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Killed It (not In The Good Way)

This town is small. Thank the lord. It was my first open mic and it was not my lovely guitar that was basically abused by my incompetence. The microphone sounded so nice, too. My...
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OMG, Poor Fellow

It's probably a dude's worst nightmare to have that happen on him while having sex. Yick. What a time for my period to start! He was cool about it. He's been cool and great about a...
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Sneaky Bloody Arses!

But, I got them before they got me. I don't often check my cable bill and statement, but something prompted me to do so, tonight, and I'm glad I did, because I saw an outrageous...
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Go, Go, GO!

Goddamnit, that guy's a grumpy and miserable sod when he wants to be! Granted, he's in a lot of pain right now and not mobile. But, truthfully, he's always in pain and always...
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"My Room Smells Like Sweaty Amy"

Well, what the heck does THAT mean? What does that smell like? Is that a bad thing? How do you know that you're not smelling sweaty Derek? This isn't the first time I've heard from a...
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Ho Hum Halloween

This is going to end badly. I had to stop you in the middle of your ramming me again, last night. So not hot. So effing stupid. You're going to want to talk about this, soon, or do...
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Starting To Annoy Me

You're trying to sabotage my personal progress. It's obvious, and it's p*****g me off. You know how desperate I am to get this crap going. You know I'm broke. You know that the...
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Missing Some Simple Stuff

I'm glad that my parents toted me around to wherever they wanted, regardless if I was jazzed about it or not. And, mostly, not. As a kid, long-arse drives are BOOOORRRRING. Old...
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I've Failed And Need Help

So, I avoid my own problems by taking on new ones, adopting other's or revisiting old ones, on purpose. I "indulged" an entire day off, when I really needed to clean and, as always,...
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Fire Fly Limbo

Yesterday morning, I texted him of the meteor shower, and he was excited to see it. Sometime during the day, he got his firepit back up and sent me an invitation to come down for a...
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Steps Ahead Steps Back

After a week and a half, the excess fluid in my airways is finally gone. Expectorating coughs remain, but at random, and you can't hear the trailing rattle during exhale. This...
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A Nice Welcome Home

He was gone for eight days, enough for him to apparently miss me so much that he treated me like such a sweetie, yesterday. The weather and withdrawals had me achy and drained, he was...
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Perfect Smoke Rings

As I continue to attempt to loosen and cough out the phlegm, wondering just how long it'll take and if I should be concerned enough to take my self-inflicted dumassery to a walk-in...
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This Isn't Like Last Time

The withdrawls started today. I suppose that they might have started yesterday with that freakout at work, but I thought that might have been period stuff. Nope. Sweats, dizziness,...
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I Like Him

I talk enough smack about the boy, and it's no wonder, he's quite the weasel and sneak. But, he's currently 13 hours north for the week on a hunting trip, and he still swooped in and...
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