You're right! I haven't tried everything to make such a statement. But I've found that everything I have tried I can't do. And I just think it's so stupid, and that it makes me stupid too and like I'm an incompetent person. I want one thing to be good at and call my own.
Thank you for your sweet words <3 Thank you both
You have an amazing relationship. (:
Ahaha.. oh, Lauren. I miss you so much.
Ahh. I understand how you feel for the most part, especially the final line. I really want to say something helpful, but I'm stuck in this weird cycle as well. I feel like it's sad and stupid too, but it's really happening and there isn't much explanation for it. At least, I've found none. Even after everything, I continue to move forward because perhaps along the way, something will change.. And from there, a chain of events will occur and everything will fall into place. One can hope, right? And who's to say that won't happen? I think that's what you should do. Keep on going, and try bit by bit to go for the tougher goals. You might find the challenges rewarding, actually. It's always a pleasant feeling overcoming an obstacle. Give things a try, that's the best thing you can do for yourself at this point. It'll be difficult at first to carry on when the path itself is difficult, yes, but think about how you're feeling now and how you don't want this to go on anymore. Sometimes, just going through with stuff is the solution.
I've missed you. I don't know if you noticed it or not, but the last few times we talked I was pretty messed up. That's how I felt, at least. And I want to say sorry for that. You were always fun and sweet to talk to.