I've had this best friend for going on 7 years now and he's amazing, but he's been having this sexuality crisis for a long time. He came up in a very traditional religious Mexican household and I feel that he dates women to cover up. But that doesn't bother me.

What bothers me is that he denies being at least bisexual when he has sucked another man's c**k (multiple times, might I add, and felt "feelings" for the guy) in high school and hasn't been with another guy since. Yet, he says he isn't gay and a blowjob is a blow job, but it really isn't. I mean, no truly straight man would soberly (or even intoxicated) agree to doing that if there wasnt something there, I'm sure. And he liked the guy. That's just something in and of itself. But anyways.

We were talking last night and he's always been very open with me about his sex life or the girls that he's dating, and he's said he just hasn't been very interested in sex since he started dating (it's been years now) and even less interested in females. Truthfully, the last person he sounded enthrall was with was that boy and that was going on 4 years ago.

I don't push the topic. He'll figure out what he's feeling on his own, in his own time. I just hope he figures it out soon. I'll support him either way and he knows that.

The struggle just seems a bit too real in all of this.