To learn to be content in any circumstance is a powerful ability that requires self discipline and I know you can do it, but I would also recommend writing in a journal to Jesus telling Him all the ugly and secret things you feel no matter how alarming they might be. He already knows and truly wants to carry your burden with you.
You have sooo got this!
I am going to continue to pray for you, and I look forward to Jesus bringing healing and comfort to wounded parts of your heart that He is ready to mend! He has done this with me in many of what I thought were hopeless situations.