You're doing all right. Everyone feels lost sometimes, everyone goes through pain that they don't deserve, and sometimes your self-sacrifice for others isn't apparent. I'm sorry for you, and I wish I could hug you, embrace you, hold you till you feel all right. Make you secure in my arms. Because you are so, so beautiful to me, even when you can't see all the ways in which you're beautiful and amazing it's right there, blazing like an enormous fire to banish out any darkness. Sure, you have flaws like everyone, and you might feel it's terrible, but I, I see your humanity and the goodness in you.
And that is why I love you. I love you with unconditional love. You deserve it, simply for being you.
Stay strong. Stay true to yourself. And on the days when you can't believe in you, believe in my belief in you, because I know you can make it, dear one.