[Work] Feel So Lonely Because No One Can Help Except Myself

Everyone has their problem to face.
Everyone are enduring certain kinds of difficulty.
Did you say that you're living a hard life? Just try to fit in the other person's shoes and see if you can stand it.
I feel lonely not only because no one can turn to, but I can't turn away from facing myself, though I'm trying so hard not to face my own difficulty or my weakness or my long time bad habits.
To get better day by day, it's so difficult to me.
I have been suspecting myself to be someone with ADHD, but what if this kind of thought is just offering me an excuse so that I can forgive myself and not to work harder?
But I have been working quite hard . or no?
I work till late at night. But progress of my work is comparable to a snail or a turtle.
My previous supervisors hated me or teased me for staying in office sooooooo long when every one else can leave at normal hours.
I know I can't concentrate, I know I refresh the screen on the mobile way too often, or napped in the afternoon.
I don't know my progress, and I couldn't have a clear idea in listing out my work and set priorities for myself. I know we should divide duties according to importance and urgency, but that sounds really abstract to me and that I am confused on how to find time for work that are 'important' and 'not urgent'. When should I do them if they are not that urgent, compared to things that are 'important' and 'urgent'?
OK, I'm procrastinating again by murmuring here. BTW, I suspected that my tendency of procrastinating jobs that need lots of thinking.

OK life must go on, an I must continue with my never-ending job.
Perhaps I'll forgive myself and leave the office a little bit earlier, and treat myself some food.
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troubledmind
Thank you. What I fear most is that I didn't really have ADHD and it was my own fault and character weakness afterall.
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troubledmind
Just keep working hard, I also recommend getting tested for ADHD and taking appropriate medication if you have helath insurance. maybe you have it and fixing the ADHD will allow you to get better results at work?
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