I've been dating the same guy for almost four years, since I was a freshman and he was a sophomore, we are no in our first and second years of college. Lately though he has been mistreating me and he doesn't understand that the way he treats me effects how I feel. some days he will promise that he will come over after work, and then just decide to stand me up, and just go home instead and doesn't even have the decency to call and tell me he isn't going to show up. Then when I call him, he doesn't think he was wrong to do that and then when I get upset he just shuts me out and hangs up on me and then refuses to speak to me for a day, until I call and apologize, he then says he is sorry and that he understands he was wrong and he won't do it again, but he always does. Whenever I get upset with his treatment of me, no matter what it is, he refuses to discuss it, saying we will do it later, but obviously later never comes and things just build up for long periods of time before they get resolved. He also has a certain non-sexual fetish that makes me extremely uncomfortable, he likes to wear diapers occasionally, and due to his family can only engage in it at my house when we are alone. Most days I just don't feel like it, as it grosses me out, but he whines and makes me feel really guilty for not wanting him to wear diapers in my house, as well as keep them in my bedroom, where I have to stare at them every night in bed. He also has begun lying to me, I have always been made uncomfortable by pot and he always promised he would never do it, he never shoed any interest until the last year, where he got a job at a pizza place, where most employees do smoke pot, and he has done it twice and planned on not telling me. I asked him about it the other day and he confessed and was mad that I was angry after he had repeatedly told me up until that day that he had never done it. I really love him but the shutting me out and the weird fetishes and sexual favors he sometimes asks for an the lying is really getting to me, he just is extremely selfish, he's my priority, but I'm only his option and I know i'm worth more than the way he treats me, I don't want to leave, I just want him to understand how I feel.