I see couples everywhere I go. People deeply in love with each other. New found love interests evolving. And I wonder where is mine? What do I do that makes guys not want to take an interest in? Am I not relationship material? I get really down about this quite often. I become the person who just wants to lie in bed and never get up. Today is one of these days. All around me people I know are getting into relationships, getting married, or already in a relationship. I am the ultimate third wheel. When I’m out people tell me all the time how beautiful I am but am I really? The only people who have told me this are women. Is it because I’m fat? Well I am trying to work on that. Really really trying but it isn’t the simplest thing to do especially when there is no person helping you in that journey, no person to push you to do better for yourself and when you start you shortly later realize that there is no point in trying to lose weight because there is no one who wants me anyways. Where is my Prince Charming? Does he even exist? Is he out there feeling the same way I do? Why is love so important? I know I don’t need a man but I want one. I want someone to love me and not the way family’s do the way a man loves a women, someone who thinks I’m the sexiest thing to be put on planet earth. I want to be that girl who people are jealous of in a relationship. Am I going to be single and lonely for the rest of my life? Am I going to be that creepy women at the end of the street that everyone is afraid of? Where is my Prince Charming? Does he even exist?