This Is Why I Love God

Some years ago my life sucked, I hated myself, I hated my life. I wanted to dissapear or become someone else. I was so lonely, angry and sad all the time. I had done many stupid things, and at that point I only felt disgust about my own existance. I didn't believe in myself and I didn't believe in the world.

God was this being who by mistake put me in this awful place and I prayed for death because I couldn't kill myself. However, God didn't take my life, instead he kept cheering me up by placing the right people in my mind and making small miracles around me when I was feeling down (a song on the radio, a conversation on the bus, a smile, an anecdote, etc). I didn't get why was He being so nice to me. One day I went to church and told him: "Ok, I'm listening, what do you want from me, what do you want to tell me". That day I found an invitation to a spiritual retreat. There I understood something, God loved me when no one else did, God loved me when I made all those mistakes, God loved me when I hated myself, He even loved me when I found myself disgusting and pathetic. He believed in me, He cared about me and Hes was there whispering to my ear "you are a miracle, my miracle, I'm waiting for you".
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anonymous user
God also loves butter cookies---and so I eat as many as possible ---so God won't have any.

Oink.

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TheDevil
So, He loved you before you returned to Him. Now that sort of means that He's responsible for how you felt before you went on that "brainwashing session". I mean "spiritual retreat". Doesn't it?
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