I got married young & have been married for 4 years. I'm 27. I married for love. I didn't marry for passion, vanity or looks. Be that as it may, she is still beautiful, sexy & a fantastic companion. What I want more than anything else is to be wanted. I'm loved. Told so, every day. Yet I never feel wanted, desired. I would kill for the feeling of being desired. The feeling of being wanted sexually. Not once has she initiated sex in 4 years of marriage. Not once has she made me feel wanted other than if I discuss this topic with her. It feels forced, dutiful in nature. Which immediately brutally murders the feelings it's meant to evoke. It's getting to the point where I find my mind wondering all too often outside the marriage. I day dream about a woman who, as strongly as she loves me, carnally desires me & wants to devour me sexually.
I'm in a loving marriage. The unhappiest time I've ever been.