There But Not There

I got married young & have been married for 4 years. I'm 27. I married for love. I didn't marry for passion, vanity or looks. Be that as it may, she is still beautiful, sexy & a fantastic companion. What I want more than anything else is to be wanted. I'm loved. Told so, every day. Yet I never feel wanted, desired. I would kill for the feeling of being desired. The feeling of being wanted sexually. Not once has she initiated sex in 4 years of marriage. Not once has she made me feel wanted other than if I discuss this topic with her. It feels forced, dutiful in nature. Which immediately brutally murders the feelings it's meant to evoke. It's getting to the point where I find my mind wondering all too often outside the marriage. I day dream about a woman who, as strongly as she loves me, carnally desires me & wants to devour me sexually.

I'm in a loving marriage. The unhappiest time I've ever been.
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anonymous user
Because you chose wrong. You married the friend type of love. Love without passion is nothing.
Some people dislike sex and being touched ergo preferring marring the friend type of love.
Passionate people need fire-like people to accompany them. Makes for a harder relationship down the road but far more rewarding and enjoyable.
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