The Wrong Boys

You must love incidences such as last night. You get to over-embellish and feel justified for some initial decision you made about me. And, really? That's fine. You boys think what you want and act accordingly, make those life decisions about me based on projection due to embellishments or past, and completely disregard the element of change and surprise that an Amy comes with. I'm busy making my own life decisions and acting on them. I purposely made a responsible decision about the amount of booze I purchased for the day, yesterday. And, though I still got tipsy and once I passed out, stayed out, I certainly wasn't anywhere close to Drunk AmyTM. I remember every single thing from last night, including you thinking I was drunk and after you leaving here to hit the bar, which is when I passed out. But, because you already had it in your mind that I was, and because when you came back, I was passed right out, unwakeable, and you had to tuck me in and say goodnight, you think I was. I wasn't. But, you're going to wrongly check this off in your mind as another Drunk Amy night.

But, as I say, it is wrong. You're wrong. Drunk Amy would have gone with you to the bar after to make some noise, wouldn't have been able to make nor serve you the St. Patrick's Day dinner I did, or remember details. And, I'd definitely feel at least apprehensive today, if not downright terrible and hungover.

So, you keep on holding me back in your mind, think I'm less than what I am. I'm not even going to try to convince you otherwise. I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing and focus on that instead of the frustration of being thought of falsely. Eventually, you all being wrong is going to shock the hell out of you, when I do something you never expected. That day will come, but, I'm not going to bother forcing it or rushing it. You can all revel and root like happy little pig boys in the glory of your false righteousness until then. Think I'm nothing, think I'm never going to be nor do anything different. Have no faith nor trust, nor patience. In the end, you'll just be wrong, and even though you're the ones who reject me and leave me, when I get to where I said I'm going to, the thing that made you take up with me in the first place, that thing about me that you couldn't leave alone and wanted so badly, you'll really be the ones truly left behind. In the end, I will have proved that I deserved better than even the best of you.
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Mopy
People will always find fault. You are who you are, and thats not defineable. People get drunk, and you recognize improvement in yourself going towards where you want to be. Focus on that. No one else matters. We become what we fill the void with.
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