The Fat/Self-Hatred Conundrum

I'm fat. I hate myself. Sometimes the only thing that makes me feel better is eating. I don't eat in copious amounts, I just tend to choose the wrong foods.

Then I hate myself for eating. I hate myself for being fat.

That self-hatred, in turn, just leads to more self-destructive eating habits.

I don't know what to do. I don't know how to break the loop. Add to that the fact that when I DON'T eat, I get huge migraine pains that do not go away until the next day. So in order to wary off the headaches, I also eat.

I'm a fat fuck and I want to die. Please help.

If you have nothing helpful or conducive to say (i.e.Cynic), please do me a favor and don't reply. Thanx.
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anonymous user
Yeah. My mom is fat.

This doesn't fucking help me.
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anonymous user
Okay. I eat fast food like everyday, three times a day. I weigh 115 lbs. However, genes like that do NOT run in my family. Maybe your family has fatty genes. I'm NOT trying to be rude, I'm just sayin; some people do get it from their parents or even Grandparents.
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SCFNFEFA
*I* care how much I weigh.

I don't care about anybody else.

It's not fucking easy. I try and try and try.

But I only have so much self-discipline. Sometimes the Chicken McNugget, he comes a-calling...
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anonymous user
Since you're not having much success, probably a lot.

Then don't do it. Anyone who cares hoe much you fucking weigh isn't worth it.
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Crxfmxhn
I don't have money to see a nutritionist.

What's he going to tell me that I don't already know?

And 30 minutes a day is way plenty for me. I fucking hate it more than death.
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anonymous user
30 minutes a day isn't constant.

I recommend seeing a nutritionist.
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Crxfmxhn
Working out constantly won't help? WTF?

My doctor told me to work out 30 minutes a day, every day.

I eat fruits and vegetables, but it doesn't make me feel full. I still get stomach aches and headaches. I have to substantiate with protein, which usually means meat, which is where I get all my calories from. Also, I'm addicted to fast food although I have seriously cut down since I began this diet I'm on 3 months ago. (I've hardly lost 3 pounds since then.)
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anonymous user
Don't work out constantly. That won't help.
Same for not eating.
Eat fruits, vegetables, and protein.
Have you talked to your doctor? Or a nutritionist?
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Crxfmxhn
I'm not trying to be a jerk, dude. I'm just sayin. Maybe if somebody feels sorry for you, you're just gonna give up. There's so much more to a person then how much they weigh.
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SCFNFEFA
To Proxy: Thank you for the kind words. Unfortunately, body image dictates a lot of what people think about you. And I can barely face my own reflection in the mirror. I just hate the way I look and would like to lose weight and be thin and attractive and noticeable. I work out constantly and I barely eat, but my metabolism is killing me and I'm sure stress factors into it somehow, too.

To SCFNFEFA: What is it about this site that turns people into assholes? At first, you used to be a nice person, now you're a jerk just like the rest. Just do me a favor and stop replying in this secret, okay?
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anonymous user
Honey here's what you gotta tell yourself because it's the truth: there's more to life than skinny. My weight does not define me
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Beautyfromashes
Well I mean everybody eats. Food is good for you. You need to eat all the right foods; you know that. You said it in your secret. So me saying, "Oh I feel sorry for you cuz you're fat" IS NOT going to make you feel better. Sometimes people need an extra push, and if feeling sorry for you is what it's going to take, SORRY, but you won't get my sympathy here. Maybe it runs in your family.
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SCFNFEFA
So what if you're fat?
Fat is not the ONLY thing you are.
I'm sure you're talented, funny, kind, and have a big heart.
You shouldn't hate your body because you think it's all you have, because it's only 1% of what makes you the person you are.
If you want to change, go ahead.
But don't do it because someone wants you to, do it because YOU want to.
Killing yourself isn't going to fix problems, dear :l


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Proxy
If you have nothing helpful or conducive to say, please do me a favor and don't reply. Thanx.
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anonymous user
I LOVE FOOD TOO! It's my favorite
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