So, Is This a Damn Job or Not?

If it's not, I can't afford to waste my days there not being paid.

And, if it is, why does it have to be? What I mean to ask is why the hell can't I land myself better job? I'm honestly squandering my professional potential. I'm supposed to move up the ladder, not down. The music they were playing at that office today made me near tears because it reminded me of my licence office and how much I wish I were still there. But, do you know how much I didn't like working at that licence office and had to quit for a year due to a nervous breakdown? Do you know that I wailed my first few days or weeks at that licence office, too? I hated working, thought I could do better for myself, and ached to pursue my writing aspirations. Today, the exact same affect, wailing about thoughts of being better than a telesales agent, and aching to turn time back and be at my licence office again.

What the fuck is wrong with me? Do I hate working that much? Or, simply, are neither of these jobs good enough for me? Last week, this awesome career counsellor spent two full days building up my self-worth. She made me feel that I was easily worth working as admin at any company, even top ones in the city, but, here I am today, embarrassing last week's self at this telesales place (that may or may not be a job). She had my worth at around $16.00 per hour to start. Kind of an asshole thing now to be only able to maybe land a mere survival job at $11.00 with no security or perks besides crappy selling incentives.
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Mopy
I had a friend who would do different accents every time they called someone. That's how they stayed sane during telemarketing. If you're good at impersonations or accents, I'd say give it a try.
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ToxicLullaby
Yes, I will do the smile trick, once I chill the piss out and learn more of exactly what I'm supposed to be doing/saying/selling. That worked at my last telesales job, turning the sexy on. Well, it didn't work on women, much.
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Mopy
It's not even a job, yet. I'm basically volunteering before they decide if I stay or not. But, yeah, I agree otherwise. I would rather be paid and get out of this poverty, for sure, but it doesn't help knowing exactly what my dysfunction is. I can identify the same type of behaviour/affect dating back to bloody kindergarten.
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Mopy
Use a mirror. Smile when on the telephone. People sound sexier when they smile.
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Cynic
I'm gonna say it, get over it. It's a job. It's better that you're pulling in some money than crying about how you have none and no food.
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ToxicLullaby
My mistake. That secret is still there. Still, it doesn't matter.
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Mopy
I've already said it before, direct and outright. It was useless reiterating it, but I also didn't want to leave alone at the time, so I beat around it. What I wrote was obvious if you knew what I was referencing. I think the post is gone now, as is whatever mood in which I responded.
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Mopy
I guess you just don't know how to speak honestly and be straight to the point. Hahaha

oh well.

Have fun at your job temporary job

:)
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TheDevil
Forget it, Dev. The moment has passed. It wasn't anything you want to understand, anyways. Just enjoy.
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Mopy
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TheDevil
still don't get what you wrote on my post

:)
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