Last night was the worst I've ever gotten. I actually wrote a suicide note. i have everything planned out. Leave the note on my bed, walk to the bridge by my house, wait to see if anyone shows up.and if not, im going to jump. I know i probably seem stupid but i need to see if people actually care. I have it planned for this friday. Im scared to. a lot of this has to do with the recent break up in my life.he meant.no. he still means the world to me and he wants to get with someone who hurt him. i cant stand that. maybe its better this way. this way, I wont have to see him get hurt again and i wont have the chance to hurt anyone else. its better this way. im sorry.