Plan for suicide

I always wanted to live in NY and go to college there.I love NY.Its so nice and alive and exciting.Theres lots of places and different kinds of people.However, thats my problem.I have severe anxiety and really bad panic disorder because of people.I stay home all the time I'm afraid to go out and be seen because the world is so judgemental and I dont want to get hurt.I dont feel confident in myself and I dont feel like I'm good enough for anyone.So I stay home and the only time I go out is for school.I get 3-4 panic attacks a day in school .theres no many cruel people today.Since NY has many people I know ill never get to live there and be HAPPY.My plan to kill myself is to jump off the George Washington Bridge..yea it sounds stupid but it means something to me...
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justlisten
and eys! they are amazing! look how well thayre doing :D

there are always reasosn to live for!
why not write a list of god thgin (ie fmaily, sunrises, music, art, sports, anythign you like)
to remind yourslef that

the people that are mean arnt worth it, would you really want to be friends with such nasty peopel anyway? no. theyre pathetic. and your better than that!
school dosnt last forever.

why not join some clubs/ do stuff outside school and eet a few people. or even do it online?
eberyone desver friends.



these problems. can be sorted.
and they will make you strogner and help you appreciate the good.
why not
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HappyEarthGirl
look how strogn youve been so far :)
maybe a doctor/councillor could really help you here.
i used to get them alot last year.

what i do when i feel panic starting to come.
is take a few minited to blank everythgin out and breathe calmly.
my councillor told me to press my feet hand on the ground (ie if fititng down) and my hands.
its muscle rlaxation tecnhiques to make you feel in contrl of your body.

also. ive never tried it. but if i had another attack. i would hold my breth. i know it sounds silly. panic attacks beign when you cant breathe. but that was you stop the gasping. and it calms you. then when you do breathe again. it will be a big breath and you cna try to control it.

I think an important thgin in stoppign the attacks.
is to know what starts them off.
this way you can distract yourslef/reassure yourself or calm yourself before thgins develop into an attack.

and as for social anoxiety. I have that. I know how awful it us. and school isnt helpign you.
But i go to councilling and it shelpign me.
im slowly workign my way up to harder social situations.
tellign msyef how well ive done, and gettign ebtter
maybe that could help you?
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HappyEarthGirl
1. http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/ this website really helped me, maybe it'll help you too.
2. If you want to talk more privately you can e-mail me at bnwranbo@yahoo.com.
3. NY really isn't all that it's cracked up to be.
4. Have you talked to anyone or are on any sort of medication for the anxiety and panic attacks?
5. You're amazing :D
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bnwranbo
what ever you do dont jump off the George Washington Bridge
its not worth it i have hade lots of ppl say really bad things about me and i just ignored them they only say bad thing about us becaus they dont feel sucur about them selves
you are who you are and nothing can really change that
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mikini
Look, don't do this to yourself, I know you're not confident in the way you look, but let me tell you, neither am I, I don't think any of us are. Just don't care about what they think, if they don't like you, then that's their problem, they're a bunch of assholes. Try to work on your self-image and start to love yourself more.
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