I'm drinking right now, and I need to not overdo this like I always do. This is why I'm invoking the memory of her right now. I want to learn from her alcohol abuse, not follow it. I've been so good, lately.I want to keep that goodness up. But, I am drinking. I purposely went out tonight to get booze for tonight's event. But, I don't also want to age horribly like her, who was a gorgeous Miss.World once, nor do I want to die prematurely like her.
I think I'll always raise a cautious glass to her since her death from now on, and say a little inward prayer of alcoholic protection as I fill my glass.
Good God, I'm such a fucking idiot, sometimes.