I dont know whats happening.i feel like I'm nowhere.everyones life is going on and I'm staying here..not progressing..not getting anywhere.im in high school.everyone can move on with their life happily, , having fun..but why not me..why cant he notice me..why cant anyone notice me? why must these people close to me with bad intentions and ugly souls get all of this..all of their wants fullfilled? I just he..or anyone could take me away.i wish I had a "he" in my life to take me away..something to make me happy..somethin to make me feel wanted and not want to kill myself..something that would help me get through my life of my crushed dreams..did everyone forget that I have feelings too? did they think of me as the background noise for their hopes and their wants to be fullfilled..maybe one day it will be fullfilled..or will it not? I just wish it would happen now.i wish I had nothing in my way of living this life.i wish my best friend was just some chick with a rack that guys like..how they look past her incosiderate personality and just look for her want..and lust..and she thinks its a real feeling that fills her empty soul inside..and that it makes her look so much better than a inconsiderate girl..i wish I could be noticed for something..i wished I didnt have to go and cry when a my only want is given to someone else..i wish some could see the real me..i wish I could have a great escape and get out..and get what deserve..i wish I wasnt morphed to think I fit in..i wish I could just have someone to hold on to and trust and could be stable and have a genuine personality..maybe one day i'll get my answer ive been looking for..i wish I didnt have to go to my horoscope everyday and hope for guidance..and pray it would tell me I will have a good day tomorrow to get me excited for life, , and to see what it says just that waiting moment..to feel ashamed that I rely on this little stuff..actually thinking it will give me an answer and help me..i wish I had more than one real friend that wold become close to me..just I pray that he, or someone else, would reach out and help me and be my guidance someone I can live for..maybe one day this will happen

maybe someone will actually like me...