I'm going through a bit of a downer at the moment.I am 24 years old (25 in a week) and I really don't know where my life is going anymore.I have been to University twice and all I have to show for it is a DipHE in Webdesign, an HNC in computing and £14000 of debt from Student Loans.I work a crap part time job, have no girlfriend (have had previous ones, but last one was 2 years ago) and I still live at home.
It's down to me, I screwed around at Uni both times and messed up.Now I don't know what the hell to do.It's weird because overall I'm not that unhappy with my life, I have friends (including a few very close ones) and my parents love me, however I can't get over the feeling that they think I'm a failure - especially considering my brother is doing a PhD.I don't feel bad about my life because I don't chase money, and I value things that matter more, as long as I have enough to live one I'm happy.I want to work to live, not the other way round like 90% of the human race seem to to.
Lately my mum has been nagging me like hell, and today she went insane and told me that I needed to sort my life out because all I do is sit around.Even though I work and I pay her money to stay here, and I'm pretty sure it's more than I take out of the house.
I am quite lazy but I think I'm a good person overall but I can't escape a nagging feeling that I'm somehow a total failure, but then I feel angry because that is basically based on the fact that I don't have a career yet - and I piss myself off when I think like that because once you escape the fact that you need money to live - which I accept, don't get me wrong I understand the need for jobs/pay etc - there are more important things in life but these seem to matter to so few people.
I know this has been a bit all over the place and I don't know if I'm really even looking for advice - although any is appreciated - I just wanted to get it off my chest.