It consumes almost all of my thoughts anymore. I don't want to hurt anyone but I want to be gone. I don't want to live on this planet anymore. I just want to be at my final resting place with no more worries. No more voices circling in my head. No more arguments with whoever.
I won't do it though. It's not that I'm scared to die, because I am not afraid at all. I'm scared of hurting anyone more than I already have. Without hurting anyone, I just want to be gone.