Nearly finished my suicide notes

Still a few weeks left but it's decided.I can't make the life I want or live with all this pain.I hope some day people can forgive me and remember who I was
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anonymous user
please dont honey, one of my friends keeps trying to kill himself and its breaking my heart, there's so much in life thats good and amazing, even something as wierd and mundane as a little kid laughing proves that, i'm here for you if you want, post something with my name in the title and ill give you my email, just please dont do this, i know its tough, really i do, but suicide isnt the answer xxxxx
Don't care, too many of these stories on this website already. If you said you did something that was useful, everyone would be so fucking amazed by seeing something new for a change, you'd get all the attention you're craving and then some.
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Cynic
If they're not doing anything to help, then these people don't matter. There are people, total strangers right here who want to help you. Please hold out and do anything you can. Change psychiatrists, they're just people too, they'll interpret you differently. Just start out small by just getting through each day. Put your notes away, destroy them even. If you keep them they'll always be in your mind, dragging you back to feeling the same way as when you wrote them. Please just live, do it long enough and there will be a day when you feel happy. Happiness seems far away when you're in that depressive moodset, but you've felt happy before. Keep going and you'll find it again, remember what it feels like. Let yourself become addicted to it, if you don't find anything else find happiness.
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bubblewrap
Question: Why are there still a few weeks left?

Why did you develop a time for it?

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37040
Everyone knows but has done nothing to really help
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anonymous user
Have you told anyone? Have you tried to say, "I want to kill myself, please help me."? I bet people would listen.
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morningsun
They aren't here to comfort me and I can't get the help from the people I need it from. I know its selfish but so is everyone else
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anonymous user
A girl killed herself two months ago, and hardly anyone remembers her now. People will mourn you for a couple weeks, but the only ones who will cry on the anniversary of your death are the ones that you shouldn't have left behind. People will cry, and you won't be there to comfort them.
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morningsun
I have tried physchs, therapists, meds, talking, journals, exercise everything but nothing makes me want to live anymore and I just can't keep doing this.
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anonymous user
I have thought about killing myself before, but have always stopped myself in the thought stage because i wouldn't want my family or friends feeling responsible for what I did. If you are suicidal, then you just haven't realized how much everyone around you loves you and cares for you. Just because you don't have a boyfriend or aren't popular or you think no one likes you... it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Please know that life does get better, and that people do care about you.
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morningsun
Then live for the people that love you! There is no such thing as 'nothing to live for' that is just the desperate thoughts of someone giving up that wants to believe what they are doing is right but it will never be right! Doesn't it hurt more knowing how much you will be hurting the people you leave behind!?
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Silentbreeze91
I don't want to live for myself, I just want to end.
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anonymous user
Ditto what safetynet said; your family will forever blame themselves, they'll have to live with it for the rest of their lives, do you really want that? There's a part of you that wants to live, I can tell. So here's my advice: do anything you can to survive. I know it's hard, since you're so down that you've turned to suicide, but these comments, they're fate. You don't have to die. See a psychiatrist, visit Samiritans.org and speak with people there. Do anything, legal or illegal, to help you live to the day where you'll wake up and think "wow.. It really did get better". Just do it. Fuck everyone and live for yourself, you're the only one who matters.
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bubblewrap
Selfish, they all love you and will hate themselves for letting you do this!!! Dont be selfish
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Silentbreeze91
They won't forgive you. So don't do it. They'll blame themselves no matter what you say and your family most of all will feel guilt for the rest of their lives.
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