My Brother Touched Me In My “sleep”

Ok, I just really need to get this off my chest. I feel disgusted that I’m keeping this a secret from my family, but what am I supposed to do? I’m just going to say that there is some sexual content so if your uncomfortable with that please don’t read. My brother and I are only 1 year apart and we share a room along with my little sister. My mother just recently got married so I don’t want to dump this on her and ruin her relationship by telling her that her now husband’s son has been defileing me while I slept. If possible I’m looking for advise and it would definitely be well appreciated.

This is still going on today, and at the moment I’m only 12 and he is 14. Our parents still need to get an actually house so my step brother, my little sister, and I share a room while his sister gets her own room, which I still don’t get considering they’re the siblings. I have a really great relationship with my brother, but I sometimes have to force a smile when I know what he did to me earlier that morning. It hurts to know that he’d betray my trust like that but I can’t tell him in fear of things becoming bad on both sides.

It started when I was maybe 11 and it was the middle of the night. I remember feeling someone touching my breasts but I thought it was just my imagination. But it just continued and then I felt him put his hand into my pants. I felt like screaming or crying, but I was to overwhelmed with fear to comprehend what was happening. I remember that after maybe 10 minutes he finally left and I pretended to wake up because of the creaking noises that he made climbing back up the ladder. I left the room saying I had to pee and just sat in the bathroom wondering why he would do that. Needless to say I slept in the living room that night.

It didn’t stop there though, he just kept doing it whenever he had a chance or when he thought I was in a deep sleep. I woke up so many times while he was in the act but I was so scared that I never did anything to stop it. I just thought, maybe if I let him do it he will be satisfied and stop, but it never stopped. Since then I’ve grown cautious on telling him personal troubles or laughing at his jokes just Incase he thinks I’m actually into him. I want him to stop but I can’t confront him or tell my mom cause it might ruin her relationship. I honestly don’t know what to do.anyways thanks for reading, hopefully this gets better
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You need to tell someone, otherwise it will never stop. Barring that, you have to confront him yourself and tell him you don't want that. Threaten him if you're forced into a corner. Your mom's relationship isn't worth the deep-seated psychological issues you may suffer later in life.