Manic/Depressive

I'm so tired of living off hope of eventually being okay.They just put on a new med, and I've been having suicidal thoughts again and that scares the f*ck out of me because last time I ended up on life support and wasn't supposed to make it.I don't want to go through that again.I just want to be happy, or at least okay.That's not too much to ask for.I hate being manic/depressed.It's like I'm sitting in the back corner of my brain watching what I'm doing, but have no control over it.It's terrifying.I've finally come to the point that I give up on hope.I'm too tired of living entirely off hope and wishes.
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Sometimes we all need to give up to remember. You'll find your drive in life. (:
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