Long story short, I'm terrible.

The feeling is coming back again.The feeling I've been dreading.I want to be with you again.

Desperately, actually.I can't explain it..It's just this intense wave of wanting that I can't shake.No matter how far away you may be from me, even though I know you could easily move on and I have a boyfriend..I can't get rid of it.

And honestly, it's heart breaking because we literally can never be together, online or in real life due to issues on my end that have to do with an over-controlling best friend that will leave me if I date you.

Yes, I've already gotten told that she's not a real best friend if she does that and I don't need her in my life.I can't help it, I just can't lose her.

But I want you.You.Oh my god.

Or maybe I just want someone I can love, someone that makes me feel the way I want to feel.I want someone to say they want to hold me, someone to kiss and love me and tell me how amazing or special they think I am.

I read all these love stories and sweet confessions and that's what I want.I want someone that loves me, that I can be with without having any doubts in my mind.

I want my 'soul mate.'

But I'm destined to always be alone, so it doesn't matter.
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Sylverr
aw.. eventually you're going to find that person that makes u feel special :)

i did! even though we have issues.
if your friend would stop being your friend over you dating someone you really want to be with than she doesn't deserve you.. best friends are people who want you to be happy, and clearly that's not what she wants for you.. it might seem hard but if she isn't a great friend you should maybe think about breaking things off with her.. it seems hard but can be better in the long run.
-if this is the guy you're meant to be with then things will work out for you, just keep your hopes up :)
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unsure
Hmmm you need to talk to your best friend,why this grip on you?
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