I'm an artist.And I write.I have written and painted for 3 years post graduate (My degree is in fine art as well) and still nothing to make a living on.I have a full time job that has nothing to do with what I have been trained to do ..and support myself fine .But recently I have been so deep into some stupid sadness at the fact that I am not doing what I love professionally...and its getting harder to even go to my current job.I have tried..and still try.

I guess I'm just surprised at how much it hurts..I know this takes time..and one day I will be published..I guess I thought it would happen sooner than this.

I'm afraid of this pain..my chest is so heavy and I haven't written or painted for almost a week.I'm blowing everything off..and I'm scared that I am losing my motivation....