As for...Stephen, I totally screwed up.On the last day of school, while my friend was trying to get me to talk to him, I flipped out and punched her in the face.Right in front of him.Dear God, I was so embarrassed.I never even confessed my feelings.I cried for hours afterward, but I'm trying to get up the courage to fix things with him.My therapist even said we could work on ways to do that, which would be a huge relief.
My temper is getting out of control.I'm a lot more violent, and, like I said, I haven't been caring what I say to people.A rather careless thing to do.I've taken up dancing, something that I was always too embarrassed to do before.I've been begging my grandmother to teach me how to bellydance, but she refuses.So, I've tought myself.I go for jogs, I do yoga, and I dance.I try to keep myself active to keep my mind from all the bad things that have happened.
One of my kittens died yesterday.I was only gone for two days...And you know what? He fucking drowned in the toilet.They had run out of water...if only I had checked back in sooner, maybe he wouldn't have drowned.It's all my fault.He was no naive, so gullible and stupid and innocent...
But enough about that.
I'm back.Didja miss me?