I'll try to stop cutting

I'll put the razors and stuff somewhere that it's difficult to get..and i'll count days..i have done it again and I can make it..i hope anyway..i just need to b strong
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TotalSelfHatred
Yeah i appreciate this but listen..i'm 17.i've been going through a lot but i'm sure there are more to come.sometimes i feel like i cannot control my hand due to the intense feeling that overwhelms me.ok 4now.but in the future what?someday it will be 2deep
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TotalSelfHatred
We all know that isn't true. Why? Because you are still here and still alive.
Look, I've been there. My arms are covered in scars from the cuts. My ribs too. And that was over half a year ago and the scars still remain. I've taken cocktails of drugs from Diazepam to Tramadol, Co-Codamol and Fluoxetine, yet I'm still here. Still remain. Why - Because those that self-harm and survive have a limit. They have a switch they flick at the point they want to stop and back on when they want to start again. We go from depression to joy by flicking that switch. Honestly, you can stop cutting, easy, no problem, but you will just start another form of self harm just as quickly as you stopped.
There will always be an unconscious underlying condition that is preventing you from coming away from mutilating yourself.
I'm sorry its harsh, I really am, but I just wanted to be truthful.
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Because i know that one day i'll be dead.
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TotalSelfHatred
Can I ask why you think that you need to stop cutting ... honestly?
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No u can stop..i know because i have stopped..it might have been a month i might have started again but this month i was free..i felt independent..and the memory of this period makes me try..
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TotalSelfHatred
One thing I have learned in life is the disorders never go away, they become reflected in other means and actions. I used to cut, 8 months ago. I've been free from it for 8months. Brilliant I am cured. Not nearly. I still self harm, I recently hit my hands against my head so hard and so much that I collapsed unconscious. I vent passive aggressive behaviour by punching my fists into a brick wall so hard and so much that the bones in my hands break. Im sat here now with three broken bones in my hand because I hit the wall two nights ago.

Im sorry but they never "go away".
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Thnx a lot<3 ok that's what i'm going to do..it's difficult but i'll try..but u 8 months...:o!!u should be proud of urself..and don't start again..u may control it now but we both now how it can end up..
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TotalSelfHatred
yes, throw them away.
i've just started again after 8 months, not like an addiction, but when i 'need' to.
It's because i know where they are.
definately throw them away instead of hiding them, and well done for trying to stop <3
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bubblewrap
Thnx a lot i'll try everything
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TotalSelfHatred
I threw my razors away yesterday. Well the ones i took apart. I still have like 5 other razors that i haven't taken apart yet. Just stay clear of sharp objects. If you need to feel pain you can put a rubber band around your wrist and snap it every time you feel like cutting. Rub ice on your wrist. Take a red pen or sharpie and scribble on your wrists.(tried it. Hurts like hell)
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MyLastBreath
better yet, throw the razors away. You'll never get over wanting to cut as long as you know where they are, and if you want to bad enough, it's easy as pie to go back and get them.
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