I Realize That I'm Losing My Mind

And, I don't know what to do about it. I can't hear what people say to me. I can't form coherent sentences. I can't think of words. When I do hear people, I either simply listen to the noises their words are making, without grasping any of it, or I don't remember what they've said.

That, and I've lost all feeling. I just watched something that used to stir and emotionally move me so to tears, and I didn't feel anything except very upset at not feeling anything.

I can't even write properly, anymore.

Someone asked me to tell him about myself, last night, and honestly I just sat there, moronically silent, tripping over every word coming out of my mouth, trying to even remember my name. It was really embarrassing and so very stupid. I can't even think of anything to say about myself. Plus, I don't want to catch someone up. It's so tedious to even say one word about myself, and I don't know where to start. Do you know how much of a waste of effort it is to try and catch someone up for years upon years without it even mattering in the end? I just don't want to go through the effort, again. I just want someone to come already knowing it all and simply continue, because I just don't have enough life left to waste explaining everything, anything, if I can help it, or worse, if I can even remember it.

It's not just that. I tune everything out and I have no common sense. I don't retain information that has more than one component to it. Someone asks me a question, then I go find another person to give them the answer, because I mix up who asked me. I hear nothing going on around me unless I stop everything I'm doing and decide to turn on my ears. I don't remember what I just said. I repeat myself constantly, actions and words. I can spend a half hour checking and re-checking my finished work, then still get it wrong. I get stunned for what seems like minutes or seconds, but it's hours.

Something has become very wrong with me, very quickly, and I don't know what or why. I hope it's only some sort of exhaustion, because this feels absolutely insane.
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Well, like the last dude said at least you're not retarded yet. Try a shrink, no joke not trying to be a douche, they're usually good people with good help. For some things anyway, this would scare me if it was me
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dudeman
This has been me for the past . . . oh, twenty-two years?
I have been unable to speak for myself since the day I learned how to talk. I always trip over my tongue and make a mess out of the simplest sentences. I feel for you; it's pretty embarrassing.
But for the record, your writing doesn't seem to suffer. And thank goodness for that, too; I was hoping I would see one post in my entire lifetime where it made absolute sense.
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