It sounds super messed up and I was seriously surprised at myself for even thinking it, but I am so disappointed in the person she has become that I am hoping her "super holistic" lifestyle affects her body enough to reject this baby.
You weren't ready to be a mother, hon. You were doing great and then you got together with the first bumbling idiot that said "I love you"
Now YOU'RE the idiot. It was your fault and I hope it bites you in the a*s in the worst way possible.
You're a cancer to society.