I hate my life and GOD

I really hate my life, I hate myself, even I hate God.I hate Him becoz He's really hate me for giving me a bad even worst in my life.He really give me different and bad personality and family if I compare mine with others.They just really happier, smarter, and brighter than me.I dont understand why GOD dont give me a normal personality.This personality really give a hard time all over my time.I cant enjoy my life.
I start to cut myself.I enjoy in pain bcoz nobody will care about me.I'm useless.I'm nothing, Nobody love me.I hate myself, I hate my life.I start to doubt about God's existance.Maybe He exist but He wont care about me.

Nobody knows that i'm in pain.Gradually, I want them to feel what I feel.Hurt.I like if others got divorce, killed, hurted, mocked, failed, be alone, etc.At least, they can feel what I feel.Even I want people hurt.I want hurt people.Torture them.I hate God bcoz He is so discriminate me with others.I'm not normal.I'm differrent and it torture me in my life.Even hard to smile.

Often I want to do suicide.But some people prevent it.They just can feel what I feel.
Initially, I pray, I worship God, I rely my life on God.But now, all my life is a proof that God hates me.There's no God.It just a fantasy.Now, I dont want to rely my life on something that doesnt exist.I swear if I get change to hurt people, especially a arrogant, happy, rich people, I will do it until they desperate like me.Often I cry, I frustrated, no hope.Thats so bad, Nobody will hear me, I'm alone in this fear and this weakness.I'm sadder than them.Ny Life is just a rubbish, a trash, nothing.I hate my life...Really hate my empty life...
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deepestfeeling
i am so sorry so many of you suffer, I feel so sad and I am so sorry, I will pray and think of you everyday, God does care, this world is a mess, the only hope you have is in God, in fact, because of your problems you are actually better off than most people because you have an evident need for God, instead of being mad at Him, embrace his amazing love for you, people without problems don't even think about such things, you are much better off than them,don't forget this world is temporary, eternal life is FOREVER, recently my ex boyfriend went to prison for a long time, he came to accept Christ as His saviour in prison, He said to me, i am SO glad I am in prison because I never cared about God until now, In his temporal bondage he found redemption in Chirst, yes, his life will not be so great on earth, but he found salvation through Jesus who died for us and saved us from sin and death, he may not have found it if he had never gone to prison and talked to a pastor. He never cared about God until he was in a vulnerable state. Praise God for your inequities as those are the very things that God will cause you to draw close to God and in that closeness you will have power like you have never known. Trust me, been there done it. I implore you, do not turn your back on the one who loves you and adores you and can help you. We live in a world full of sin, sickness, and consequence. we are all sick in some way whether physical or emotional or mental, and those that think they have no problems are the sickest of all.
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roxygirl
I PRAYED AND ALL HE F*****G GAVE ME IS F*****G BAD LUCK!
WHAT DO YOU CALL THIS?!
GOD IS TAKING F*****G THINGS FOR F*****G GRANTED.
AND I DONT LIKE THAT.

IVE STOPPED AND THINGS SEEM TO HAVE BEEN BETTER IN LIFE.
SO F**K HIM AND JUST LET HIM F*****G DOWN
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asdasd
Yes F**K GOD, HES A D**K
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asdasd
God is certainly a low life piece of s**t for putting me on this rotten no good earth to suffer, and since he created so many very nasty women which is the reason why many of us good men can't meet a decent woman anymore to have a relationship with. i never realized that he created so many loser women out there nowadays that have a mouth like a truck driver when many of us men will try to start a conversation with the one that we would really like to meet, and then to have them curse us out for trying to talk to them which makes it worse. these women must have been so very badly abused by the men that they were with at one time, or their parents must have abused them when they were growing up. either way, most of the women nowadays are so very pathetic to begin with. and now with so many Gay Women today, how very sad.
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SpeakingTheTruth
You will always be loved as a child of God. Perhaps the footprint's prayer may help
The Footprints Prayer

One night I had a dream.

I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.

I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.
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Prodigalfather
I'm so sorry to hear that. have you ever heard of theophostic healing? it is a really good way for God to replace the lies we believe about ourselves with the true. I should know as I once feel like you. .bless you
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annnna
what about all those people granted amnesty. we white folks aint got s**t but if you want s**t you gotta not be white as f**k.
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aneyeforaneye
Hey I f*****g hAte my life to the ends of the earth as well. Our real parents were poor as dirt and lived off of welfare. they had no real way of taking care of us and eventually when I was 8 years of age, I and my 5 other siblings were yanked out of a s**t hole only to be placed in hell on earth. for years we were systematically abused psychologically, physically and even sexually and emotionally. this s**t runs deep in me and I f*****g hate it. my life HAS never gotten better. It always goes to hell in a handbasket and I am so sick and tired of this s**t. I want a better life but how the fukcing do I do that/
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aneyeforaneye
I hate my life.I was abused as a child.so I kept away from those people.I was abused verbally so I shut off my emotions, I was abused in a church so I left .Ive tried everything.drugs alcohal,religion,money education,.counciling.my life is f---up I hate it its not worth getting up in the morning.nothing works
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nessa
If God is the start and end of all, evil is also him. He likes to create billions of people and rewarding a fraction of them with great lives, wealth and good genes. What happens to the 95% of the world? Poverty! Yes, the god who is the source of all and infinite, has most of his creation languishing in sub human conditions. If he were compared to a father, he'd be considered deadbeat. Why do I have these thoughts? I just open my eyes every day and the evil around us and the poverty in most of the world sickens me. Mansions in heaven? Fuck that! He can't even give the homeless here who has mental health issues a decent place to live dignified. Fucking empty promises.
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Miki
god makes me sick! its like he purposely makes things go good in my life for a few months then takes it all away like some sick fkn game it never ends. i FKN HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE GOD AND WISH HE WOULD FK OFF OUT OF MY LIFE!
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deathproof
I read the "I hate myself and God" post with a lot of understanding. Heck, It was me who Googled "I hate God" because I was also hating God, and I came to this, read a few tragedies , mostly yours and signed up to comment.
Who the hell am I to comment on your suicidal, God hating, self hating, depressed, tall, handsome poeple hating post?

I am an ex fellon of the worst kind.
I am in a custody battle for my son and I hate her and I hate God for love leaving and taking my baby with it.
I spent 5 years in prison for something I didn't really do.
I'm an alcoholic and recovery cocaine addict.
My father was a child molester and taught me a reality that I didn't know was sick, and counter reality as a kid.

I was a Christian and now I don't understand God. I used to but am so brainwashed, hurt, angry, scared and pissed!
I am a tall, Handsome, semi-succesful white guy.
Life is all about perspective:
In cocaine addiction I couldn't imagine anything worse....until I went to prison as a child molesting cocaine addicted, alcoholic.
Yeah I said that. Yeah, it can always be worse.

you know what?
Here's proof there's a loving God:

10 minutes ago I hated God, after all. I've been through the shit, and God damnit I sure put others through it!
Then I wrote ' I hate myself and God" and found your post.
I am listening to "Light of the World" by England Dan and John Ford Coley and crying- Poor me!
Then I read your post about hating God and I realize you're more fucked than I am and that's hard to do.

There's a God. You just reduced me to sorrow for you, em[pathy, love, compassion and selflessness. Exactly the same thing Christ rammed up our butts a hundred times in the New Testiment.
Life is relative. Your problems and mine are real and painful, but there's always someone worse off.
God showed me you today and I feel like a great big, spoiled pussy for whining.

I am humbled, and I am here for you if you need a real fuck up to talk to.
There is nothing you could possibly tell me to make me run from you, or make me reject you.
God is real because you need as much help as me!
"Light of the World, shine on me...Love is the Answer..."

BTW: God gave my old ass a new baby boy six months ago.
I sure as hell sisn't deserve this little gift.

I am renewed in my interest in helping the poorer mother-fucker than I.
God forgive my selfish ass.
I am dirt compared to Christ.
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houstansdad
I THINK GOD IS USELESS...IM A DISABLED PERSON AND HE DONT WANT ME TO HAVE GOOD THINGS LIKE A GIRLFRIEND.......WOW YOU R NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO HATES GOD EVEN MYSELF........I HATE HIM......PLS IF U WANNA CHAT WITH ME U CAN FIND ON.....mndawe@webmail.co.za.....i wanna make contact with u...bye
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KGAOGELO
Don't blame God! He didn't do any of this to you. You're the one who is doing this to yourself. You're letting yourself drown in this self-pity and hate. Do something about it, don't expect God to do everything for you. You need to get up and make a difference in your life. Don't let the emptiness continue, do something! <3