I know how you feel..I can't take my life anymore..but why do you feel this way..I don't even know you but my hearts cries for you because I've been there I get it..
You're just depressed. You need to find something to be happy about. People who really WANT to die DO die. You saying this means you are depressed enough to think you want to die, but know in your heart you don't. Chin up, sweets. It could always be worse. I was picked on my whole life. It took me 20 years to realize I was worth loving. I love me, even if no one else does. :)
Well fuck, who enjoys sleep? Sleep is bullshit. I still dread going to bed every night because if I don't have a nightmare, I'll randomly wake up through the night. And if I don't randomly wake up through the night, I'm dreading about how the next day isn't going to be any different than the one before. Believe me, I'm in that boat too, but even through my darkest times I figured that suicide was never going to solve anything.
So yeah, I'm not living a happy life either, but I'm taking steps to change that, small than baby steps even, but progressively and surely I make my way closer, and closer to my ultimate goal, happiness. I mean, do you want to feel happy anymore? Would that be enough to keep your clock ticking? I hope not. Never rely on happiness because happiness is a two faced bitch, ready to fuck you up at any moment. But, a nice steady stream of it would be nice, no?
Well, we have a lot of useless space that needs to be filled. But personally, I don't see you as a useless person, it just sounds like you hit a stream of shitty events. You're only as useless as you want people to believe you are, but from an outside perspective, take this as a bad day, bad week, bad month, learn from it, and find a way to deal with it. Suicide, it's just, I don't know, but it's not the answer. So if you absolutely find it necessary that suicide is somehow the only option, atleast find a way to enjoy life before you take the plunge.
