I Don't Know What's The Point Of Anything Anymore

I've tried to find solace in ordinary things, in boring things, mundane things that make me "happy" or at least temporarily satisfied. That works for the most part, until I am reminded of who I used to be, or of what really makes me happy, if I allow myself to be. I end up limiting myself because reality doesn't conform to my expectations. So anyway, I'm living in my own little tiny bubble, and things are all right, I shouldn't be complaining really, except that things aren't all right and I'm blind to everything and it can't continue on like this forever. I have no income and the well is running dry. What happens what the money runs out? With my lack of skill set, I can only see one out and it scares me more than anything.
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anonymous user
If you aren’t into religion ruling your life, then why let any old sayings rule your life?
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justsomeguy338
Religion isn't a solution for me, although I find it interesting that it seems to be the last resort for people with no hope. It's like they prey on people at their most vulnerable. That's their business model.

I thought the saying was that you can't help others until you help yourself first. If I already hate myself to the point of self-harm, how can I even find the motivation to do anything for anyone else?
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anonymous user
The point of everything is you, at least as far as you are concerned. If there’s nothing you can do to help yourself right now, go find someone else that needs help and see what you can do for them.
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justsomeguy338
I think a lot of people may feel a similar kind of despair. I had the money issue to deal with for several years but have turned a corner now. My wife and I had a rough time during the financial downturn and now we’re in this weird spiral where nothing’s happening and we’re just coexisting, focusing on our kids.

I’ve been considering going to church and reading the bible to try to find some meaning. I feel like I’m just drifting in space, watching my life from the outside looking in, kind of on auto pilot. I’m not really finding much happiness and can’t appreciate the good things around me. I don’t know exactly what happened. It wasn’t always that way.

Anyway, I guess what I’m saying is that maybe you can find some meaning and purpose through the church. Lots of people I know that are religious and attend church services regularly and are part of that community seem to be happier and more carefree, and they have that community to socialize with, too. Since I stopped connecting with my wife, I’ve really felt a giant void in my life, like I’m just passing time until some major event shakes things up.

I have enough years behind me to know that things change constantly and this will turn a corner. I’ll make it turn a corner. Hang in there and maybe volunteer with a community group or get involved with people some other way. Other things will line up at some point and you’ll see the path forward. Suicide isn’t it, by the way. The best years of your life may very well be ahead of you. You want to be around to see how it all plays out.
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