I Am What To You, Again?

Last night, he asked me to his family's Christmas.

That's kind of a big first milestone in even a determined and established relationship.

I certainly wasn't expecting it, though I've met them and seen his grandparents and aunts a few times throughout this year. In essence, he got the jump on me with this one, and that's kinda cool. It was discovered earlier this year, when he met my second youngest sister, that my family and his family have a connection. Some of my sisters fondly knew his mom, his grandparents, and his aunts both growing up and as adults. Since that discovery was made, there has been fun talk between the families about it, apparently. It's interesting for Derek and I to have an established backstory that we never knew about, and if he and I ever became something serious (if we aren't already? what IS this?), I'm sure that a reunion between the two families would be inevitable.

Time is coming and going so fast. This year has zipped through. I would have thought this thing with Derek would be zipped through and done, too. I was ready and anticipating it. But, instead, I'm being asked to family holidays. That's unexpected, but nice and cozy and peaceful. Personally, I've had an interesting little quick year, healing, nurturing and discovering my identity. Testing myself. Going back to roots, getting to the root of issues and barriers. Struggling with my personal responsibility, winning little battles, knowing where and how I lose and how to handle the losing better. Learning how to let things go, and watching what returns as soon as you let things go. It's been cool, really. As much as I am stuck and feel trapped in situation, the mind, psyche, personality is freeing and broadening.

Monday off of work again! I indulged this weekend, caved to quarter of bud. Just for an extended weekend treat. I've been holding off for over a month to treat myself this way, though I was really hoping for edibles, but the stock hadn't replenished since last weekend and it was a pay week, so I stopped denying myself. As soon as I did, I suffered consequences with that decision along with the benefits. :D Just as I'm learning to anticipate that to always be the way. :)
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Mopy
Nobody gunna bother reading all that nonsense, u boring as fucc
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