I Am Old And Worthless

I am depressed and good at nothing. I am a worthless addict. I have no one. I don't have a job or a car. I am fat and stupid. I am just a useless diseased whore that no one will ever love. I keep trying to kill myself but people keep finding me and sending me to the hospital to be saved. It is a waste to try to save me. All I've ever done in life is hurt and disappoint everyone around me. I am too old to start over and try to fix things. This world is better off without people like me and I'm so sorry I brought children into this hell.
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anonymous user
Whoa, hold up right there. You can’t just kill yourself! You might have problem in your life, but you can use that as a reason to live. You can change what you are no matter what age. Most people could have left you killing yourself, it they sent for help because they care about you. Success can’t be achieved through easy life. It’s about overcoming overwhelming odds and obstacles. Sure you may be old, but there will be one person who cries when you die. If you don’t like what you are right now, then have courage to change who you are.
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Firedragon31
I suppose that's a "nice" way to put it.
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Cynic
If you can, look up CBT apps for your phone or ipad. Cognitive behavioral therapy. There are many free ones.

Try to stop feeling sorry for yourself. Once you let go of the victim mentality and become other-focused (e.g. thinking of making amends with your children and thinking of them and their needs). The less you focus on yourself and more about health the better it can be.

Thinking is also an addiction. We are all worthless if we don't think we have any. Worth has to be created. First in the mind then through actions, and then we feel like we have worth and can continue to do things that create value.
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safetynetxo
I'm old, too. I don't use cannabis anymore but a decade ago I found that using it completely distracted me from feeling miserable and suicidal. We don't have a chance to start over, but you have a chance to look at things anew and find interest and beauty. I suggest visiting a state with medical or recreational cannabis to see if it helps you out of your misery. Best Wishes.
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