I am depressed and good at nothing. I am a worthless addict. I have no one. I don't have a job or a car. I am fat and stupid. I am just a useless diseased whore that no one will ever love. I keep trying to kill myself but people keep finding me and sending me to the hospital to be saved. It is a waste to try to save me. All I've ever done in life is hurt and disappoint everyone around me. I am too old to start over and try to fix things. This world is better off without people like me and I'm so sorry I brought children into this hell.