To start off, I met this girl in March as I was finishing school and I instantly fell for her. She was just ending a relationship with a guy, so i waited until it was over and we got together. Things were going well until she moved to a different town for work. She started hanging out with her employees (she was the manager) after work and began drinking and doing pot with them, she'd still call me after every night but she began to ignore me. Well, one night she got really drunk and cheated on me. I wanted to badly to leave her, it killed me inside that she could put so little value on me. I didn't.instead I went to see her the next day. flash forward through tons and tons of b******t and we are still together and while she assures me that she will never do it again, I can't trust it. All the good things about me are dying. I am trying to do the right thing and forgive, but i just can't completely. When i sleep, i relive it over and over and I just can't take it much longer. I am working midnights now and i find myself completely alone at night looking at the shambles of my life. Why do I have to love her? Why can't i just want away from this person and find someone else who will love me.