Heres what I'd say to you

I’m here and I will soon be gone once more but I have some things that need to be said.I’m nothing special I’m just me and you saw the good a long time ago then you saw the bad and and I admit I made a lot of mistakes and I acted pretty crazy for a while and but you never took the time to stop and realise I am a decent person and that the person I always was is always here and there might have been something wrong.Well there was, I have severe depression and now I am several medications for it.I have been through absolute hell and my head has been all over the place and I have wanted to end it so many times.I lost everything to this as I self destructed, my self respect, my optimism, my smile and most importantly you.

I loved you more than anything in the world, hell I still love you but I am not trying to get back together.I don’t know if you’re with someone else and I don’t care.Look, we went through a lot and it would be a shame if that has to come to nothing but you don’t have to see me again if you don’t want; it’s that simple.The feelings are gone but were both still here.I was always there for you, I could always make you smile and you know I would go to ends of the earth for you and I always wil but this is my closure and possibly my final words to you.I am not doing this for you, I am doing this for me and for my family and people that really care because I know it hurts then to see me suffer and I need to try and put this all to bed and to know I tried.I will always be here and I will always have time for you but I will continue to try and piece my own back together and figure out life without you.You hurt me more than anyone ever could but I will never regret falling for you; only the way things turned out.
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ididitallforyou
And that's all you CAN do, really :/ Go out there, live and hope it doesn't suck as bad as the bad before.
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PartyPoisonLove
I don't know whats going to happen tomorrow all I can do is wait and see
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ididitallforyou
Exactly :)

You decide how it turns out. Not her. And definitely not...him.
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PartyPoisonLove
Yea it's life so we see how it turns out
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ididitallforyou
Nothing, I suppose. At least for now. It's out there and you should wipe your hands clean from it and try to keep going. Because someone can hurt you only for as long as you let them.
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PartyPoisonLove
Aw :( I'm sorry sweetie.
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Olivez
Cynic, duely noted.
It's good to get it out but I still don't know what to do with it
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ididitallforyou
It helps to write it all down and get it out in the open.
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SlytherinAngel
Good for you. I hope doing this helps you out.
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PartyPoisonLove
Paragraphs are a really cool invention.
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Cynic