I’m starving in my body and spirit, if there is such a thing. The emptiness that was there for so long and was only breached by one has been my most faithful companion for a long time now. I want to think it’s waiting for me beyond the veil but I’m being told to stay and find it here. People fling themselves around me trying to get there and I close in tighter. I’m supposed to be stronger and smarter but the veil sounds better. It’s a sure thing either way.