I skipped my yoga lesson and my Buddhist class and I just lie in bed for the whole day, watching how lovely it is outside the window.
I used to go hiking quite often, and I used to go jogging, bird-watching, etc etc. But now these seem far away from me. My body is fine, but I just don't know what happens in my mind. Sheer laziness? I have tones to do but I feel quite reluctant to do it. I should be having healthy food but I just want McDonalds. I'm hungry but I have no appetite, and I can't quite enjoy food other than junk food. Sometimes I can't enjoy even junk food. I feel like I'm wasting my life away but I can't face it. I have no mood for almost everything. I should work but I don't want to work. I have books but I don't feel like I want to read. I have friends but I don't feel like to meet. I should go for a checkup but I have no energy to do it. When will I die.