Sometimes I can't help thinking of my ex. It is sad to realize that she is doing awesome while I still miss her. She is dating this guy and she seems happy. I tried my best to make her happy, to be the perfect boyfriend, yet she was so mean to me. I guess I'm jealous of him. I was with her while she was having trouble everywhere, I was there to support her and to help her in any way I could. I remember always trying to find a way to make her smile, she even mentioned suicide a couple of times but I was there to cheer her up. Now she is doing a lot better and this guy has the chance to enjoy all that. I have the feeling that she loves him more that what she ever loved me, actually, I don't think she loved me at all. I know it's stupid to keep thinking of someone who wasn't meant to be with me but it just seems so unfair. Why did I have to fall so hard in love with someone who doesn't even care about me anymore? Why couldn't she have felt the same way about me? Why is she so frikin happy without me? Why is this guy living my happy ending?