Am I suicidal?

I can't deny that I haven't thought about suicide before.It was just made more obvious to me after Scott, a boy in my class, hung himself.I can understand why people do it.It is a way to end everything, the pain, loneliness and hurt.Every day I put on a mask and I feel like it's slowly smothering me, my friends see me smiling and believe that I'm fine.My parents say they understand but how can they? They aren't me.And they don't live my life, feel my pain.It feels like every day a piece of me dies and I'm afraid that I'll be left as a shell of the girl I once was.I'm drowning in my silent tears that no one has heard and I'm afraid that no one would notice me gone.All that will be left is my body and a mask, but I'll have died inside.
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amaya
try praying
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fassy
My parents don't try at all. I hate my dad and my mom is dating so she doesn't have time for me
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Hjohnston
You're not unique in the way you feel. And your parents are trying, give them credit. A lot of people don't even have that. It sounds like you either need to get help or you need to suck it up, and guess what, only YOU can decide that.
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