All the wrong decisions

I just need to get this out and I don't want to burden my friends and family with more BS.. What do you do when you feel like you are a complete and utter failure? Every single choice you made in your life was the wrong one, no good has come from the decisions even though only good was my intent and yet everything seemed to back fire on me. I moved my son out of one state to give him a better chance at life only for him to turn into his father still. I failed at my marriage, apparently couldn't keep him happy enough. I could only afford to buy a crappy house so I live in a house I don't even like with many issues that need to be fixed but the last two things I can get over time will work them out but failing as a mother is the worst feeling ever. He is only 16 and yet it's not a horrible record (it could be worse) but now he has a record and I don't know how to help him make better decisions. I am afraid he is heading down the wrong path and I don't know how to help! I feel like I am worth nothing just one huge failure at life and I don't even see the point of living any more. I just want to give up so bad because I hate feeling the despair and that nothing is ever going to be good in my life so what is the point to keep going.
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Life is full of complications and unfortunately sometimes you get the short end of the stick more often than you realize. Suicide is an option if you allow it to be, however I personally feel like that's taking the easy way out. Sure it solves your "problems" at that moment and you won't be burdened anymore; wouldn't you rather make it out on top and give everyone the finger because you made it? You'll be kicked when you're down yet it's the ability to ask "Is that all you've got" that keeps the fire in your spirit alive. Sometimes you have to take a step back from a completely unbiased point of view and ask yourself "What's making my life this way". Once you figure that out then just make small changes until you get things where you want them. As for your son while it is sad how things are going you can't blame yourself at all. My mother was a single parent who constantly made bad choices. Even with all of that I didn't let myself be lured into anything I didn't want to be involved in and your son isn't any different. All of his choices are exactly that, HIS choices, and you can't let that run your life either. He'll learn one way or another we always do.
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